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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Graphic_Depictions_Of_Violence, Major_Character_Death, Rape/Non-Con,
      Underage
  Category:
      F/M, M/M, Multi
  Fandom:
      IT_(2017)
  Relationship:
      Bill_Denbrough/Pennywise_(IT), Bill_Denbrough/Beverly_Marsh
  Character:
      Bill_Denbrough, Pennywise_(IT), Beverly_Marsh, The_Losers_Club_(IT)
  Additional Tags:
      Child_Death, Underage_Rape/Non-con, Sexual_Violence, Blood_and_Gore,
      Temporary_Amnesia, Forced_Voyeurism, Possessive_Behavior, Mocking,
      Psychological_Trauma, Angst_and_Tragedy, Sad_Ending, Self-Hatred, Dark,
      Fear_Play
  Stats:
      Published: 2017-10-02 Completed: 2017-10-04 Chapters: 3/3 Words: 7557
****** it will end in tears ******
by julissianna
Summary
     he wakes up in the beast's nest and when he finally realizes what's
     wrong it's already past too late...
Notes
     attention everyone please! before you read this story please consider
     that this,is not by ANY means going to be a nice fanfiction.
     no it's going to contain a massive amount of angst and feels trip and
     gross underage rape between pennywise and bill.
     the ending won't be pretty either so basically this entire work is
     just pain and tears and death everywhere.
     but i can promise you that the next fanfiction are going to be much
     easier after this.
See the end of the work for more notes
***** i miss the missing *****
The smell of rot and danger is what wakes him up at the end,his nose wrinkled
in disgust as his hand covered his nostrils before he could open his eyes
properly.
When he does open his eyes,his ocean blue pupils go wide to the sight of an
endless pile of children floating in the air like sleeping angles,or demons...
The look in their eyes is glassy and some are even lacking limbs and pieces of
their bodies,and bill,even as he wanted to gulp the uneasiness away,found out
his throat is dry like sand paper.
He just now realizes he wakes up with his clothes soaked with gross mixture of
cold sweat,vomit,mud and dirt and also...blood.
Strangely,he finds out every single bone in his body aches horribly and he bits
his lip to prevent from the pain going in further,he doesn't quite understands
why it hurts so badly though,because he looks down and sees that all this time
he was laying basically on a small well made little bed that was a heavy old
mattress,not moist or moldy just old with the parts slowly falling apart,a pink
worn out blanket covered the mattress,probably used for a newborn baby that was
either stolen or tossed away,and a bunch of old unattractive plushies and soft
toys to be used as a pillow or a comfort for a child.
He's almost impressed,and for a moment he thinks he can relax until a sharp
noise pierces the silence.
He tilted his head to the side like a confused child,he focuses his attention
on a very small sound of robotic toy footsteps and sees from the distance as a
tiny little mechanic clown toy that made a tiny steps towards bill.
Bill barely bats an eye as he sees the little clown toy walks by itself,really
now he had seen a lot more stranger things lately but he does feel disturbed by
the clown's creepy cheery laugh,it was anything but cute or funny but dark and
ugly and if anything it only made his head hurt.
Scared to trigger further pain in his bones he reaches one arm to the mechanic
toy when it is close enough to him and grabs it as he examines it up and down
to see something strange,but besides it's creepy features and stupid laugh
nothing seems so special about it,until.it.locks.it's.eyes.on.billy.
"wakie! wakie! sleepy head! wakie! wakie! sleepy head!" 
Out of surprise and fear bill tosses the haunted toy away,startled by it's
sudden reaction and how it looked at him in an uneasy way.
He soon feels a warm heavy liquid hit his already dirty shirt and he shakily
pulls his own eyes to see the cause of it,feeling super bad about it.
Bill meets a pair of shining yellow eyes stare at him hungrily watching his
every move and reaction,he makes a mistake and let out a gasp of horror and
soon hears a heavy chuckle from up above him and a very harsh landing on his
mattress that makes him move his position and jump a little.
He once again opens his eyes to see now a very massive and scary looking
creature that was right beside him looking at him with it's burning ember
eyes,everything about the creature screamed danger,from it's weird tacky
clothing to it's sharp toothy grin,the makeup and even the hairstyle made bill
uncomfortable just looking at it.
The headache in bill's brain begin worsening and he grabbed his head feeling a
wave of unwanted memories flood through him like a storm of chaos.he remembers!
he remembers and when he does,he no longer feels fear for the horrifying
creature but a pure sheeting anger.
the creature resembled the figure and the look of a clown,it was indeed a
clown,but a very twisted one too,it looked at billy with the same never ending
Cheshire cat grin while it's eyes are puzzled to each different direction,the
right one was looking directly at billy and it made a low grotesque giggle when
it realizes the change in bill's face.
"scaaaaareeeeeed?"
 it stretches it's jaw in an inhuman way as it rolls the words on it's
mouth,the voice is a mix of a raspy child voice and gleeful animal out of the
horror movies,like the same horror movies he and he and richie used to go to
and...
Oh god...
Where the hell is richie?
Where the hell is everybody?!
Bill forces himself to swallow the fear and anxiety that had built up in his
stomach as he remembered how he needed to approach the beast beside him.
 "i-i'm not scared o-of you"  he answers with honesty,still stuttering with now
a reason to fear for his friends' safety from the nasty ugly creature that
feeds of the flesh of a child and uses their fear to make the gruesome taste
all better for it's sake.
The creature puzzles it's left eye to the side and giggles like a broken record
as the laughter going more mad and horrifying,finally it stretches it's slender
neck to reach the boy's face trying to get another reaction of fear from him.
"a-are y-you s-s-s-sure buh buh billllly boy~" it sings and mocks his
stuttering,moving it's head side to side violently,when it finally realizes
that bill indeed doesn't intend to give it what it wants,the clown erases it's
ruby red smile from it's lips and instead raises it's back forward pulling
sharp spikes from the back,tearing the costume and changes the ember yellow
color from it's eyes to orange red,now,it was as much as angry as bill was,only
much more dangerous....
"well,we'll just have to change that..." the voice was now more vicious and
grotesque,scarier more than any monster bill ever heard in his life,and it was
serious,and that kind of startled bill,so he turned his head away wishing not
to look at the unpleasant clown anymore.
But that didn't even last long,the brunette boy felt the razor sharp claws dig
into his milky cheeks and pull his face back to look at the sadistic clown,and
the expression on it's face was furious and very confusing as well as bill
couldn't understand why but it seems like another form of emotion was hidden in
those burning red orbs of hatred and fury.
Something ugly...
Something scary...
"i can make you feel scared billy,i can make you feel so scared and
hopeless,you would like it billy,you'll love it!" the clown trembled with
excitement at it's own sentence like it was the best thing it could hear or
say.
Billy tried to look away when the monstrous being rolled it's eyes leaving only
two big white empty eye balls but the creature knew exactly what it wanted,and
it knew his deepest fears and weakest strings and so he knew how to bring the
boy to do as it pleased. 
"would like you like to know about your friends billy?"  it coos,it's eyes are
crystal blue now,it's cheeks are puffy and childish and it's bells jiggle
sweetly when it moves it's head to the side.strangely,the clown looked so kid
friendly now,almost like a real adorable clown,it sucked bill in into having a
little faith about the monster.
Billy nods with closed eyes,his heart beats fast and his hand shake,he wants to
know.
He needs to know...
What happened...
Where is everyone?
Why doesn't he remember anything?
Why is he so full of mess and blood and vomit?
Bill was too deep in his thoughts that he missed the sharp disturbing smile the
child eater had put on it's mouth,obviously the clown had no intention in
good,but it knew how fun the play and the game would start and end,it knew if
bill knew the truth then he would never forgive himself.
And that,
Was what,
It wanted....
a sickly sweet smile covered the shark teeth of the monster as it held billy's
hand lovingly,stroking it and too close to it's mouth.
"okie dokie little friend! but you have to promise to always be quiet and
listen carefully...i'm not repeating myself twice..."
billy swallowed his nervousness and nodded with closed eyes,he tried to ignore
the growling the clown monster made and the amount of drool it got on the
mattress and instead listen to what it had to say,hopefully getting to hear
exactly what it wants.


***** the start and the end of the game *****
Chapter Summary
     they just wanted him back,that's all they ever wanted,so why did it
     have to end up like that,why?
Chapter Notes
     personally,this chapter was the hardest for me to write.
     i do believe chapter 3 won't be much harder than this one.
     it's also probably the darkest chapter in this story and i feel so
     sorry for writing this.
     warnings: child death,violence,gore.
See the end of the chapter for more notes
Screaming,
Screaming,
Everybody's screaming...
Why do they all scream?
His body hurts,hurts a lot and he feels like a mangled,broken little toy.
It hurts,hurts so bad,please make it stop...
He opens his eyes but all he sees is red and and he smells like butchered
animal and he still hears the screaming.
Screaming,
Screaming,
Make them shut the fuck up please!
He tries to ignore it but then the pain returns to him like a hammer that
bashed his skull and he gasps,thin trail of tears cleaned the path to his
vision and he could finally see more colors other than crimson red.
He sees dark shady colors at first and pale figures that looked very young to
him,the blurriness soon faded away until he could see perfectly fine six
children standing away from him,a look of terror in their eyes,they are Holding
weapons,rusty pipes and a bat and sharp pieces of glass and a gun.
Are they going to hurt him?
Why do they all look so terrified?
 He tries to get up but finds his body tangled in a vicious grip by
something,he can't see since his head is sternly held in one direction on the
front and he grunts in pain and wheezes as the cold pierces though his delicate
young lungs.
Something is holding him tight in place and it's breathing into his
neck,furious and hungry,and he suddenly grew quiet....so,so quiet.
A bold short haired ginger girl steps in,her pale pearly cheeks are stained
with tears and still she screams.
"let him go!"
She screams,into whatever was keeping him in place,she screams without fear and
it growls and tightens it's grip on him,and he struggles to breath because it
grew so possessive of him quite easily but his brain was Starting to work
again,waking up from the numb state it was in and he looks up at her,and she
looks up to him too.
Blue meets green.
She whispers his name and he watched as more tears formed in her beautiful
emerald eyes.
"billy..."
And he feels it again,the pain of remembering.
It hurts...
It hurts...
It's so fucking blissful...
His chest puffs up like a balloon and he vibrates violently in the possessive
grip that kept him still,he remembers again,he knows,knows where he is,he knows
what's holding him,he knows who those kids are and why are They so scared.
They are not scared of him,there arescared for him.
Because the fucking monster above him,holds him against his will and threats
his friends to slaughter them all if they even dare to come closer in between.
He wants to scream their name! he wants to get out of IT'S grip and run off to
their hands again and hug them and hold them and protect them with all his
life,because he never wants to lose somebody again like he lost his little
brother to the same fucking clown.
And that's exactly what he does,he struggles,ignoring the loud growling and the
claws that dug into his skin he struggled more and more but he couldn't get
out.
Eventually the ginger girl,Beverly,wails and screams again.
"stop it leave him alone!"
Bill looks up to meet the hateful eyes of his enemy,orange and mad orbs glared
at him,it was as if just with it's eyes it could strangle him until he goes
limp,but bill wasn't scared of it,he was just mad,so,so mad! he missed the
warning behind the clown's eyes that said that something very bad will happen
if he continues to resist him like this.
The creature bares it's teeth and hisses,letting the children,bill's dearest
friends drink in the sour sight of IT dragging their friend away.
"no,i'll take him...i'll take all of you! and i'll feed on your fears as i
feast on your flesh!" the monster violently spat out the words of an open
gruesome promise,leaving a single curly haired boy with bloody bite marks on
his face tremble and whimper in pity.
The clown giggled back and forth,the dirty saliva drops hit bill in the eye and
he shouted at the disgusting sensation,he didn't miss to see the monster wiggle
it's gloved finger at the kids,giving them a second chance for a better choice
as they hope so.
"or....you'll just leave us be,i'll take him and only him and then i'll have my
long rest,and you will all live to grow and thrive and live HAaaPpYy lives
until old age comes and gets you back to the weeds!"
And then there was silence,both the children and billy went silent,they were
hopeless and out of ideas,worried for bill's safety but still hooked on the
promise IT made if anyone ever try to pry him from IT'S claws.
Billy on the other hand seems to understand exactly what it needed to do,he
felt like a fucking martyr and he hated it,but he couldn't let his friends
suffer,not like him,not ever.
he took a glance at Beverly who never stopped looking at him with warm
desperate eyes,he bit his lip and nodded slowly to her,closing his eyes he
whispered to himself to be brave.

Be brave billy,
B e brave...
Brave,brave,brave,brave-
"leave" he finally spills the words and he finds it to be harder than he
originally wanted.
He closes his eyes,he doesn't really wants to meet Richie's shocked
expression,oh no,it will only make him pity himself more.
He doesn't want to see the hurt in Stan or listen to Eddie's weak cry,Ben would
just look down and mike will shake his head not believing what he just heard.
Billy found it very hard to look at Beverly,but he thought he might be fine if
he wouldn't see the putrid smile of the monster that still held him tight.
He wished his life wasn't a train of wreck and it would be much easier for him
to handle this but that wasn't the case,richie didn't think so too.
The black haired boy got up from the dirty muddy ground and looked sternly at
his caged pal,his eyes twinkled,meaning he had a plan,a very stupid one too.

"we can't let you just go like that bill" he said with no amusement in his
voice which was strange and almost disturbing.
Bill just shook his head and brushed the creepiness he felt off,what the hell
was richie even thinking? couldn't he see he was digging his own grave?
He stuttered his words out,weak but determined as ever.
"n-no,it's all my f-fault....i'm s-s-s-sorry"
"s-s-s-sorry hehehehe" the clown smocked the crying child,pouring salt on his
wounds and giggling at the reaction it got,sadness and emotional pain seemed
just as lovely as fear was to it.
"no bill listen to me now dammit!" richie shouted,there was a hint of anger in
his voice as much as it had frustration too,none the less the child decided to
let his friend continue longing for his every word before he will lose him and
the rest of the other losers.
"you're right,it is your fault,you punched me in the face,you made me walk
through shitty water,you...you brought to this fucking crackhead house! and
now..." 
Bill could feel the beast grew furious at the insult,he didn't think something
as powerful as IT could get so moody and moved by a little comment from a
trashmouth child like richie.
Richie made slow movements towards the endless mountain of garbage and children
toys,the same mountain that had the children floating around it like a
magnet,he picked a silver metallic bat,raising it to the air and holding it
Firmly as he stares into billy's confused pools of bluish eyes.
"i'm going to kill this fucking clown" 
 The silence that was invading before was popped like a bubble,the losers took
their time to understand what richie just said,bill's mind went blank for a
moment until the monster below him roared wildly and pushed the Boy it held so
close to it to the ground with a massive speed and force,it's eyes were furious
red,it no longer wanted to be kind to the brats and spare their lives like
promised,right now,it had a new intention.
Kill
Them 
All
Richie couldn't see it coming,how the monster jumped on him with a murderous
force,how it sank it's teeth to his little face and ripped his head out of his
body.
But the others could,and boy how they screamed,the blood splattered everywhere
and it stained every child,even bill,who laid on the mud with an aching skull
and pain in his bones that made every tilt of a limb horribly Painful.
The ringing in his ears faded away but not the screams,he cried softly as he
grasped his head begging for the pain to go away.
Screaming,
Screaming,
Everybody's screaming...
Why do they all scream?
The smell of fresh blood slowly made it's way to his nostrils and he gagged to
see a stain of blood on his shirt,the young teen turned his attention back to
his friends to see the clown demon having it's jaw locked on Richie's head,when
the horrific grotesque creature made eye contact with bill it smirked with the
head still inside it's jaw,it crunched down pulling disgusting noises of flesh
being torn apart and bill couldn't help himself but to vomit on his shirt,he
only caught the last glance of Ben falling into the ground throwing up as well
as him.
No...
No...
God,please don't...
Bill had covered himself into a little ball,having every bone in his body
aching badly he couldn't do much more then to watch and cry and scream for
the animal monster to stop,but if anything his cries and protests only excited
the clown as it let out an horrific laugh,pulling Ben off the ground and
throwing him to the opposite wall,the chubby sweet child cried in pain,and the
sounds of crunching bones echoed in the room,Ben broke almost every bone in his
body,he couldn't do more than whine as he was still shocked from the hit and
pain.
Stop!
Stop!
Don't hurt them please...
Eddie rushed towards him but he was soon caught by the neck by a gloved
hand,his terrified tear stained eyes bore into the clown's as it laughed and
squeezed on Eddie's neck,Beverly tried to hit it with a rusty pipe but it was
almost as if it couldn't feel the pain at all,soon enough the clown took a one
last good look at eddie who's face turned into a purple grape and dropped him
on the ground.
Why?
Why?
Why did you do that?
IT used it's foot to kick Beverly into the side having her to cling into her
stomach in pain,when she raised her head she saw billy trembling in the
corner,screaming and crying for the creature to stop with the massacre,the
ginger girl made her way towards him,making sure to be quiet enough before she
wrapped her arms around him snapping his mind open.
"b-b-bevvie..." he chocked on a sob but she hushed him and they both turned
their head away as they heard the scream of pain mike made as the beast bit his
fist when he tried to hit it,having himself distracted the clown took the
opportunity to use it's razor sharp claws and tear the skin of his cheeks
leaving only a pink bare flesh sticking out between the lips,that somehow made
stan to snap from his long lasting trance and he finally stood up on his feet
shaking and his eyes blood shot trying calm himself despise the pain.
Please,please,please stop! stop!
i beg you!
Bill was about to make a move but the girl beside him held him down without him
understanding why,but then he saw her,that despise having the vomit and the
blood stains on his shirt and that his face was covered in filth,she still
clung to him,because she was just a scared little girl that wanted comfort from
him,so even though it hurt, he let her embrace him shouting again to the clown
that skipped towards shaking petrified Stanley.
don't do it,
don't do it,
for the love of god-
Bill expected IT to do horrible acts to Stanley before his death but that
wasn't what it wanted at all, pennywise held the boy's face tightly and stared
into his eyes,at first none of the children understood what it did,but when the
clown's eyes turned completely black with only a shining light peeking through
Beverly gasped and hid her face into bill's chest crying softy on his
shoulder,the boy watched as his curly haired friend started screaming and
crying without a stop,his body was shaking horribly and he looked he was going
completely mad before his own eyes.
This disturbing scene seemed to go on and on for only a few moments that felt
like hours of pain and misery until Stanley just like the others dropped on the
moist ground looking like a lifeless statue with his glassy eyes open wide and
unblinking.
"deadlights called for you,Jew boy~" IT sang,biting it's finger like a small
child would.
Billy gulped down the heaviness in his throat,as he eyed his surroundings in
horror.
Gone,
They were gone.
His friends...
His losers...
Gone,gone,gone,gon-
The dark voices kept repeating the words as his arms were still holding firmly
his only left alive friend who he refused to let go off,he didn't care what the
hell was that clown up to next,he will fight it to death if he has to just to
keep Beverly alive unlike...
His eyes averted to Richie's headless form and he felt another wave of nausea
filling his body like a fever in summer.
"love birds~"
The both remaining children turned their gazes at the monster before their
eyes,bloody and shaking,dirty and ripped was pennywise standing in front of
them,eyes burning gold and puzzling to each different side except The left was
locked on billy,always on billy...
"you fucking monster! you killed them all!" Beverly screamed ripping herself
from bill's embrace and locking her angry stained eyes on the clown who giggled
and just brushed it off.
"no,no,no silly dove i didn't do a thing it was allbilly's fault here" IT
pointed it's now torn apart glove with the claw at the shocked boy and nodded
to the girl who couldn't believe what she heard.
"if your little prince in shining armor would've listened and came along by his
free will...maybe your little friends wouldn't be with the weeds now" it winked
at Beverly as he got closer to her face staring at her lovingly and stroking
her chin before punching her in the face and knocking her down.
"WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?!" bill roared at him in fury,standing on his knees since
his bones hurt badly too much to stand properly,the creature blinked slowly
before grinning madly and showing it's set of sharp teeth to the angry boy,it
got closer to the child,close enough to even let his whispers be heard well in
his ears.

"silly stupid boy,haven't i told you...i don't like repeating myself twice..."

Chapter End Notes
     ithurtsithurtsithurtsithurts-
***** it will end in tears *****
Chapter Summary
     do you?
     do you know?
     what to do now?
     do you?
Chapter Notes
     the last chapter of this story,i plan it to end way better than the
     previous chapter since i was working too hard on it and wasn't even
     once happy with how it ended so i hope this will not disappoint me.
     warnings: underage,rape,corpses of children,mental issues and trauma.
See the end of the chapter for more notes
He wakes up.
 
His chest is heaving like a rabid animal,his eyes stinging with tears and his
face smeared with snot and saliva,past the sting in his eyes he tries to get up
only to be forced to lay down with much more massive force that Held him down
like a ragdoll,he felt the hot liquid in his belly once again.
It was dark now,way too dark,he doesn't remember it being so dark like this
before,could he really pass out for so much long?
Past the darkness he sees the floating beautiful pair of blue eyes,looking down
at him like he was the prettiest thing it saw,he wants to reach it but then he
sees a pale spot of light that shined on the pair of blue eyes and He could see
a face,and when he does see it he gasps and tries to move away,making the
creature above him growl and turn the eyes back to screaming yellow.
"where do you think you're going?" IT growls pulling it's set of razor teeth
that were leaking with saliva and dry blood,billy squeaked like a mouse that
has been caught by the big mean cat,feeling the goosebumps on his skin rise
like a roller coaster,he wasn't sure if he was mad or sad but he felt very very
gross,and very very numb at the same time.
"d-did you kill them?" the greasy locks of his hair glued to his face and his
heart breaks a little to the sound of the dark giggle that he hated the most.
"no,no little friend....you killed them" IT wiggles the finger,the same way it
had back in his previous most darkest memories and suddenly bill wants to throw
up again.
Billy's body feels sensitive to everything now,there was still darkness that
surrounded him,or maybe it was just the demon that was playing with his
mind,and that last thought could've gave him hope if his friends were still
alive but sadly they weren't and sadly the monster was right,it was indeed his
fault,maybe if he wasn't so stubborn it could've have ended better,for them and
for him.
''are you scared little one?" the clown chuckled again,brushing it's claw
against the moist dirty cheek,not minding the nastiness one bit.
The boy thought about it for a moment,was he scared? he was sad,he felt
sad...he felt so broken and empty and sad,but was he scared? why should he be
scared? he already lost everything he had...
"you were scared back then little boy" IT closes it's eyes for a moment and
bill swears he could hear it moan softly against his ear,the weight on his
chest tightens when he feels the massive hands and claws close on his shoulders
and he finds out his legs are spread to the body that was laying on top of him.
"you were scared i'd kill your little pals,you were all shaking and crying,and
you looked so pretty and petty at the same time~" there was something very very
wrong in the way the clown said that and bill didn't like it,he felt wrong,and
he tried to ignore it but the creature grabs his face and locks it's yellow
ugly eyes with him as it brushed it's ruby lips against his ear lobe before
kissing it gently sending unwanted shivers down the child's back.
"and you know what little guy? i liked it...i want to see that fear of yours
again" without a single warning,the clown thrusts it's hips against billy's
small tiny form and bill gasped at the sensation it gave him.
Billy struggled against the claws that easily cut through his shirt,the torn
out fabric couldn't possibly hold much under the claws of the beast,he felt
exposed like a served chicken,but somehow he was glad to get rid of the nasty
shirt that was soaked with vomit,blood and other body fluids that may or may
not belong to him.
A scream ripped from his throat like a mantra at the sharp pain he felt when
the clown bit the ear lobe along with a small pieces of it too,leaving only a
bleeding half eaten ear,that throbbed and made the kid want to run away as fast
as possible from the child predator that held him down.
Bill watched the clown swallow the small piece of the lobe and he wanted to
punch it in the face right there and then,but a small hint of worry made him
stay still,he wasn't scared,but he hated the feeling of pain that made him want
to die,he was scared of pain,and IT picked on it quickly.
 
"children billy,they just taste so much better when they are afraid,but do they
all feel as good as they taste when they are all scared?"
The cold claws played on the delicate skin on his chest,IT scratched it pulling
small cuts on the chest and making blood ooze from the wounds,the smell of it
was intoxicating and bill felt the gross long hot tongue of The creature lap at
his wounds like a hungry dog.
"what are you afraid of billy?" IT glances over to the weeping child with
hungry lustful eyes,and bites his chest breaking the skin and moaning at his
taste.
Tasty,tasty,but not enough....
"n-nothing...y-you already took everything f-from me..." the bells that were
attached on IT'S hands jiggled in glee as it gripped the waist of child pulled
him closer to itself.
"you sure about that?" IT smiled like a demon that belonged in the
nightmares,the boy's chest was red and bloody,his ear was half eaten and he
looked so beautiful with his eyes leaking and his lower lip trembling like
that,the image itself made something stir inside of it,something that IT hadn't
felt in a long time,and suddenly a nasty plan formed in it's mind.
"But if i hadn't took everything from you,what if there's still someone who you
wish to see?" the blue eyed kid opened his mouth to ask but the clown used the
opportunity to shove it's long tongue inside,pulling billy's jaw with just the
thumb as the monstrous tongue danced with the little one and made it's way to
the throat,bill coughed and gagged with saliva and the sensation of the
slippery thing in his mouth,his body felt hot and weird and numb too,but he
felt sensitive to every touch and his skin felt on fire.
The creature moaned in his mouth,licking it's lips and giving a small kiss on
the boy's lips before biting his neck with it's needled teeth,the child
screamed and pulled at the clown's hair to let go but it kept a harsh
grip,somehow bill wondered if this is how georgie ended up,having to struggle
against the grip of the predator only to be silenced and eventually devoured
completely,without realizing it bill choked on a sob.
"w-who did you spare? who is still alive?" 
IT licked the blood from the nasty scar that's on the boy's delicate neck and
purred into his neck.
"do you really still want her? the ginger little slut who gave herself up for
her daddy?" it murmured possessively into bill's shoulder as it clawed his back
leaving it's claim on the teen.
Bill on the other hand,felt like he was on cloud 9,Beverly was still alive,it's
all he knew,his heart skipped a beat and he shakily pulled himself away from
the clown's grip.
"pl-please l-let me see her!" he breathed heavily,oblivious to IT'S boiling
anger,boy was this kid in love that much with her that he risked his own
life...
"i wouldn't do that unless i were you little buddy,i don't like sharing my
little buddy with nobody,not even lil' miss bevvie"
IT didn't even look at billy,it's fingers played with the button of the pants
of the boy beneath him,IT started shaking with anger and frustration as
IT really didn't have any patience to hold itself back,the kid was right there
beside it,weak and ready to be ravished and mangled from inside out,and yet the
brat kept on babbling his stupid lips over someone else right in front of it.
A dangerous glint danced in the clown's eyes,suddenly it knew what it had to do
now.
Bill couldn't see what was happening but he could feel,and suddenly he felt
cold,very very cold and uneasy,he looked down to see his pants were half way
gone,caught on his knees and pulled down by pennywise who was too much caught
in the moment,he was about to protest but a hand moved around his neck
preventing him from further struggling.
"shush,shush little one,just let this happen,and maybe,i will let you at her" 
IT hissed and trashed around like it was in a hurry,once bill's jeans were on
the ground,he finally started panicking,but remembering the previous night that
he wasn't listening to what the creature told him to do it ended badly,so
instead he decided to keep still and let IT do whatever it wanted so it can
finally be over with him.
Bill's boney small legs were hold tightly by the clown demon as it settled
itself between his legs,bill of course had a very bad feeling about this,having
himself exposed and being half naked with the monster that slaughtered his
friends,he tried not to look much at the clown and how his puzzling eyes either
looked at him with burning scary desire or an urge to murder him and gurgle at
his blood.
"you're a little kid that still smells like milk,and yet here you are,legs all
spread for me~" IT rubbed and stroked the porcelain pale skin that belonged to
bill's thighs,the clown brought it's face closer to the boy's crotch making
bill squeak and blush terribly,IT sniffed and trembled with pleasure.
"smells so good,so perfect,i just want to eat you whole billy boy~" the beast
clawed at the child's thighs,the blood was staining the whiteness of the once
perfect skin and the aroma reached the clown's nose as it moaned and groaned
and thrusted it's hips further into the boy's groin,the movement was so strong
that billy's legs were hopping in the air with the thrusts.
IT'S voice was now thick with desire and lust,his claws got impossibly sharper
than ever and it even somehow seemed looked like he was bigger now even
more,even when aroused with the thought of having the child it could get so
scary looking and creepy.
Pennywise's tongue was licking every nook and cranny of the teen's body,bloody
and messy was bill's body when it held the body in it's arms,but god,was the
kid's taste wonderful.bill couldn't keep the noises to himself even as he tried
to,but when the clawed fingers made their way to hold the hem of his underwear
he finally felt like crying his heart out,he was scared now,he didn't want
this,why the hell was this even happening anyway? was Beverly really even worth
all of this?
 
Of course she was don't be stupid billy,don't be so selfish be brave!
Be brave billy!
Be brave billy,
Be-
"stop!" the teen screamed,the monster clown ripped away at his
underwear,leaving him completely at it's mercy,naked and exposed,never in his
life bill felt so embarrassed before,he blocked his face from the beast with
his hands wishing he couldn't hear it's voice.
"don't be so embarrassed little one,humans by nature have disgusting
bodies,so don't cover yourself away" IT purred an insult as it continued to
kiss the boy's bloody thighs,smearing the blood on it's claw until it was
soaked enough,IT smeared the blood on the little pink tight muscle hole between
billy's bottom cheeks,entering one finger billy chocked on a cry at the painful
sting as the claw of the creature went inside of him.
"o-oh god..." he sniffed and sobbed,forcing himself to endure the feeling of
something as sharp as a knife cut inside of him,he suddenly become very very
small in the hands of his predator.
"no god here sweet thing,just the two of ussss" IT hisses like a snake,with
it's head buried in the boy's crotch,where IT could smell and the taste it's
victim however it wanted,stroking a thigh and brushing the tongue on the base
of the kid's member that was barely stiff,IT added two more fingers
inside,twisting them and scissoring the tight warm insides of the boy's ass.
the brunette tossed and turned uncomfortably feeling stretched and weird,he
panted heavily when the other hand of the clown was busy stroking and pinching
his sensitive nipples,once in awhile a claw scratched the pink skin making him
jump in slight pain and discomfort but other than that he was still at the
mercy of the monster that kept him still in place.
He tried to remind himself that this was all for the sake of the chance to see
Beverly again but then he felt something warm and slimy brush against his
entrance and he had to pull his head forward to see what was happening,and
god...he really wished he didn't.
 
It was dark purple and moist,with scales and spikes around the base,the hole
looked like a tiny mouth with no teeth and it was moving and purring and
pushing itself inside,billy couldn't help it anymore...he screamed.
it hurts...
it hurts...
it hurts,it hurts,it hurts it hurts-
"ah,fear,i finally found your fear little boy~" pennywise closed it's eyes in
pleasure before gripping billy's ankles and pushing itself forward,along with
it's monstrous cock right inside the teen's sweet virgin body,taking an extra
pleasure in hearing his screams of pain and agony.
"p-p-please s-s-stop it..." bill was gagging terribly on saliva,he felt
terrible,there was something inside him and it hurt,hurt so much,hurt too much
and he wanted to die.
"b-b-but baby,i thought you wanted this for b-b-bevvie" IT mocked him,between
moans and pants and very hard thrusts,the movements were rough and IT was way
too big for a small child like billy,but even so it kept it's rough pace
hitting the prostate again and again feeling bliss having billy's virgin blood
all around it's monster cock,laughing with a voice so thick with madness and
evil and desire.
bill scratched his face and tried to stop the new tears that formed in his
eyes,god,how pathetic must he look right now,the other losers would've laughed
at him for throwing such drama like this,he could see it,he pictured their
faces to prevent the pain from invading his mind and driving him mad,he
pictured their faces and re imagined his sweetest memories of them,he thought
about richie and his endless jokes about Eddie's mom,he thought about Ben and
his weird theories about the mystery of the town,of mike who had the best
advices and wisest quotes,of stan who would almost always disagree to follow
him to his adventures,of eddie who will always mom around him and richie,he
thought about Beverly...
Beverly,bev,bevvie...this is for you...my pain is for you...
the blue eyed boy felt hot wet mouth on his half eaten ear,licking the wounds
and whispering sweet rotten nothings into his ear.
"oh billy boy,you're wonderful,gorgeous beautiful boy,you're gonna stay here
with me and rotforever!" IT laughed with thrill and satisfaction,wheezing in
pleasure as it buried itself deep inside of it's victim,filling the bloody
mangled insides of the child with disgusting semen and hot liquid,so hot it
made the boy shed a few tears and whine.
.
.
.
they both stayed there for a few moments that felt like forever ,billy was
being held by the arms of the clown who brutally ravished him,hurt him and
destroyed his happiness,he cried into the ruffled dirty costume while his
greasy bloody hair was being stroked lovingly,it was painful to move now more
than ever,and he was to tired to do so anyway,there was a gross mixture of
blood sperm that leaked from his bottom to his thighs,and the sweat that built
up after the rough sex made bill's wounds sting,he was sure that by the morning
he might get an infection and that is if he even gets to live to see tomorrow
morning.
he wiggled weakly from the possessive embrace of the creature and spoke slowly
since his voice was still sore from all the screaming he made earlier.
"you g-got w-what you wanted....now let b-bev go..." he wasn't sure if he was
angry but he was definitely  anxious and still determined to get what he was
promised for,he got fucked to see his friend again so he better get just that.
At first the clown looked at him confused,but then it seemed like a light bulb
turned on in it's skull and it quickly changed it's face to a wide malicious
smile,that made bill feel nervous.
It jumped on it's feet shaking loosely and brushing invisible dirt of it's
already dirty costume as it skipped to what bill assumed were the tunnels of
the sewer system.
"alright,alright little buddy,promise is a promise you gonna get what you
want!" IT called from the tunnel,bill quickly sat up,trying to cover his naked
shameful body in the little pink towel on the mattress and he waited with wide
eyes for the clown to be back with the ginger girl but he was only met with
silence that disturbed him.
"oooh miss bev so naughty to hide from him now,he was waiting for you all this
time!" bill could hear the clown fake a cry when he saw it come back with what 
appeared a body in it's arms,bill jumped off the mattress with the towel still
attached to the lower side of his body,he ran towards the clown leaving trails
of blood and sperm on the ground without minding it much.
"bev...Beverly!" he cried with a slight smile on his eyes,meeting the clown to
see him holding the body of his friend only....only she didn't even budged.
billy confused as he was,touched her cold freckled shoulder and turned her
around to discover her face was completely eaten out,with only one empty eye
socket and a jaw filled with sewer maggots crawling in and out of the putrid
flesh in her body.
 bill wanted to scream and shout and hit something,but more than anything he
wanted to throw up,he twisted his knees to hold himself together as he once
again met with the corpse of the girl that was on the mud now,as pennywise
threw her off it's arms,possessively eyeing the traumatized child,it kneeled
down and and whispered some nasty insult in his injured ear.
"she said she wasn't scared of me,had to turn into her papa and pound some fear
into her,but she could never feel as good as you were little one~" 
bill glanced over to her dress to see a stain of brown dry blood between her
legs,he screamed and hit his skull with his fists,the clown was laughing at him
and his pathetic reaction,with as much as it wanted to stay it decided to leave
the miserable tragic couple to themselves,IT felt a sudden hunger from the
previous act and was determined to fill it's stomach with fresh new blood.
when IT left,bill was already crying his heart out and clenching at his bruised
chest,while the tears in his eyes blinded him from seeing the rotten figure of
his dead love.
for him,
it was as if the world has collapsed,
into a black stain...
even his tears were no longer filled with innocence or emotion but cold and
misery,that turned the world into a filth.
so he kept his eyes shut and cried.
he prayed that the next time he would open his eyes,
the world...
 
would be pitch black...
 
Chapter End Notes
     i'm sorry...
End Notes
     ugh,dammit! again,it's longer than what i wanted,sorry guys but i
     have to split this fanfiction to different chapters now.
     i'll finish it soon though,promise!
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